"Is something wrong?", she said
"of course there is..."
"You're still alive", she said
"but do I deserve to be?",
"Is that the question?"
"And if so...if so...who answers...who answers..."
I... . I'm still alive.. yeeaah..."
-PEARL JAM

So despite my efforts in the past year to aggravate and antagonize my bosses, I find myself still employed today. And it's not because I'm good, or I deserve it more than others, or anything like that. I just got lucky. 2 out of the 4 guys on my team didn't make it. And these were smart, bright, hard working guys. So I can't help but feel a bit guilty that I'm "still alive"...